I MISS YOU JOHANN!!!

Huhuhuhu…
Waaaaaahhhhh!!!!!
MISS NA MISS KO NA SI JOHANN!!
Tagal ko na rin s’yang hindi nakikita…
At kapag hindi ko pa gagawan ng paraan, next year ko na s’ya ulit makikita, kapag maglalaro na s’ya sa UAAP.
Bakit ba kasi one semester lang ang men’s basketball? Dapat pinapalitan na nila yung ibang boring na events sa second semester, yung hindi nagha-harbor ng excitement…gaya ng…soccer?!?
Hehehe…bitter!
Natatawa pala ako.
Kasi hindi ko alam kung mae-excite ako o matatakot na malapit na yung October 30.
October 30--- kung kelan ko malalaman kung…ah basta…surprise na yun! Abangan n’yo na lang yung ipo-post ko sa October 30 o sa mga araw pagkatapos nun.
Masaya yun kung sa masaya…
Pero…
Ayoko munang isipin!
Kahapon, may nakilala at nakasama akong lalaki, kamukhang-kamukha noong “first love” ko, si Kessmar. Tapos, as usual, kengkoy, mabait at masarap kasama ‘tong lalaking ‘to--- mapapansin ko ba naman kung hindi?!? Well, anyway, aliw na aliw na naman ako sa kanya. Pero nung nasa brink na ako ng “crush moment”…biglang…
AYOKO! HINDI PWEDE!
GUSTO KO SI JOHANN!!!
Nagalit yung sarili ko sa akin. Bakit ba ako naghahanap ng ibang crush, eh andiyan pa naman at buhay na buhay si Johann?!?
Ang pagkakaroon ng ibang crush ay pagtataksil kay Johann…
HAHAHAHAHA…nababaliw na talaga ako!
Okay lang.
Walang pakialamanan. Ako naman ‘to e.
At…oo nga pala…I’ll take this opportunity to address something to everyone na tinatawanan ako, o ‘di kaya’y napapa-iling na lang, na-didismaya, na-iirita o basta to those people who have no whatsoever faith to this “Johann endeavor” of mine:
Wala kayong pakialam sa’kin at wala rin akong pakialam sa kung ano man ang opinion n’yo tungkol dito. As the cliché goes, everyone is entitled to his own opinion. As much as I respect your opinions and reactions, may it be violent or not, I expect you to respect my opinion, too. Pero kung ayaw n’yo, ‘di ‘wag. Wala namang epekto sa’kin e. This may not be a sane thing to do or experience, but ironically, this is what keeps my sanity intact. In this world where I always end up doing things for other people, or opting to do things in favor for other people, or to please other people, having a crush on Johann seems to be a diversion from it all…something only me and my mind could grasp and understand…something I chose to do for myself--- because, first and foremost, it makes me happy. It helps me keep that optimistic side of me whole and intact, because it helps me hold on and hope for better things to come. Again, it makes me happy. At least, Johann’s image in my mind makes me feel that there is still something I can hold on to, especially after experiencing the feeling of holding on to something, or someone for that matter, and believing on that person, after which, he leaves you hanging.
Having a crush on Johann for the past 3 months has been a therapy for me and for my crushed spirit. It made me realize that no LOSER can put me down again, and that, because he made me cry and depressed…HE’S NOTHING BUT A LOSER. He’s a loser, and I am not meant to be with him, rather, I’m meant to be with somebody like Johann--- somebody who, to give the most “mababaw” reason, knows how to play basketball, and plays basketball well. But seriously, I’m meant to be with someone who has enthusiasm and zest in life, somebody who has dreams, and works his way towards achieving it, hindi lang basta dada ng dada at yabang ng yabang, wala namang kayang ipagmayabang. A real gwapo---inside and out, gwapo talaga. Somebody with a great personality. Somebody who will uplifts my spirit, and not the type na kailangan ko pang alalayang magpakatino sa buhay n’ya, dahil nga LOSER s’ya.
A lot of people may raise eyebrows to my previous statements, pero you have to understand that I personally believe that we choose and make our own destiny. Kaya ko nasabi kung sino ang guy na meant for me.
In all of my years of existence, I kept doing things to please other people. I guess it’s high time that somebody comes and please me naman. So those of you who have no whatsoever faith in my endeavor, please, spare me from your pessimism and dull spirits and let me enjoy life, even if it entails that I be considered insane for having a crush or obsession with Jonathan Rogel Uichico.
There.
Hay…sa hinaba-haba ng litanya ko…this pice boils down to one statement:
MISS NA MISS KO NA SI JOHANN!!!