TUNGKOL KAYA SAAN 'TO?!?

Hulaan n’yo kung tungkol saan ‘to?!?
Kanino pa ba?
‘Di syempre tungkol kay…JOHANN!!!
Wala na nga akong masabi tungkol sa kanya e. Kasi wala na akong balita tungkol sa kanya. Kaya nga sobrang miss na miss na miss na miss ko na s’ya.

Sometimes, I, myself, am wondering why I developed a crush on Johann, or how I even got to notice him that fateful day. As far as I can remember, there were a lot of cute and handsome guys cum prospects seated around us in Cuneta Astrodome that time, and I even remember that the reason I spotted him was because I kept looking all over the Ateneo crowd for a possible prospect (that was the reason why me and my friends stayed to watch their game anyway). I really don’t know what possessed me, that my eyes suddenly got glued in his direction.
As my friends would often tell me, he’s not that cute. They say he’s got no appeal at all. I must admit, that yes, his looks are far from that of a heartthrob.
Exaggerated as it may sound, but it seems to me that there was really this force that impelled me to look into his direction and an even greater force that sent me into having a crush on him.
But to think about it seriously, I think Johann was the archetype of my dream--- not my dream guy--- but only my dream. Having a crush on him entailed that I follow the urge to get to know him better, and in trying to do so, the dream that was hidden at the deepest part of my heart was unveiled once more for me to, I guess, start aspiring for it again. It was due to a lot of circumstances that I had to give up aspiring for that dream, and I thought that I had already let go of it. But in the course of my having a crush on Johann, the dream divulged again, and made me understand that I could never really let go of it because it will be one of the major keys towards the happiness and sense of fulfillment I long for.
Also, I guess the best thing that this “Johann endeavor” has made was that, it helped me become optimistic about life again. After an upsetting event in my life, my zest for dreaming and for living life itself died down. For sometime, I just let life pass by me, because at that time, I felt that I failed and will still fail in anything that I’ll try to pursue. But having a crush on him made me realize, more importantly, that there are better things to come, and that I shouldn’t let one ugly experience let me down. It made me consider that it wasn’t really my fault, my shortcoming, and it wasn’t a failure. That dreadful thing happened for a reason, and probably, what I deserve was something grander.
And so, this explains why I’m obsessed about Johann--- it’s because I’m obsessed about my dreams and all the wonderful feeling that comes with having a crush on him.