SHIIIIIIIIIIIIIIITTTTTT!!!!!

Shit.
Shit ulit.
Isa pang shit.
That’s all I cay say.
I drowned my mind into thoughts of my research paper due tomorrow, of our barkada’s outing after and of the possibilities of meeting cute guys in Fontana.
I did this while I drowned myself into cups of coffee.
And now, I can’t figure out the real reason why I can’t sleep--- if it’s the cups of coffee I drank, or the excitement I feel for tomorrow’s outing, or the research paper I have to finish and submit tomorrow, or…
The news that I learned just a couple of minutes ago: Johann and his girlfriend are back together after almost two months of break-up.
I’m supposed to be happy. Or, frankly, it should be none of my business. They look good together, they love each other, they’re happy together. Besides, I’m way out of the picture. They were already a couple when I developed a crush on Johann, and I don’t think my having a crush on him matters on the two of them. I still remember when I first asked my friend about Johann, the first thing she told me was that he already have a girlfriend. And I was fine about it. After all, it’s just a crush. Nothing serious.
So why do I feel so shitty about it all of a sudden?!?
Maybe this Johann thing isn’t doing me any good.